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30 November 2016 @ 12:50 pm

It's amazing that two years down the road, a certain situation has triggered me to get on my creative juices and write a post again.

I met Ira last night, to catch up on life. I wanted to actually be there for her in however I can with whatever she's going through. The thing is, catching up with Ira always feels like it's a blast from the past. Feels like someone slapped my forehead with their hands full of my past memories. Just like, "Here you go! Take a ride in the past bitch." *smacksforehead*

That just sounds absurd, but yeah it happens all the time. Hahaha.

So naturally, I started looking up the past and my only way to do so was through this journal. It's baffles me how I used to have so much time on my hands to blog about everything and anything under the sun.

After looking through the journal, I found this deep expressive post I wrote when I was just 18. I'm very impressed with myself to be honest. Hahaha.

Below was what I wrote exactly 7 years ago:

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I know right. How emotionally dramatic was I? Hahaha. To think that I was 18 back then.

Reading through that though, I can actually pat myself at the back after all these years. I got over him.. well eventually. Of course you'll never be able to forget your first love. All that euphoric, ecstasy, anguish, heartache moments you experienced.

Would I want to relive those moments? Probably not.
Did it make me a better person than I was before? Yeah, probably did.
Did i grew as a person from going through all those heartbreaking moments. Definitely yes.

Thing is, once you've been emotionally connected to someone for that long during your adolescent years, you tend to have a part of them in you somehow.
What I've learnt though - No boy/ man is the same. Everyone's different in their own unique way. What you want isn't always what you get. What you yearn isn't always gonna be what your partner yearns. Somehow, you'll live with that. Somehow you'll manage to find a way to accept him for who he is no matter how frustrating your differences might be.

Times were different back then. I was young, naive and hopelessly blinded in love. I'm not saying what we had wasn't real, to me it was. At that time I just didn't know what the world had in store for me.

Few years down the road, who knew I would have met my match. My better half. I wouldn't say he picked up the pieces, someone else helped with that but he plastered the pieces back together though. The man who'd push me in ways I never thought possible. The good and the bad. The one I plan on spending my life with.
Funny thing is, I feel as though our journey was written, like it's fated to be the way it's meant to be. Till this very day, I still believe that we're meant to be together. I feel that all the events that happened in my life eventually led me to him.

It's been a month since he left. I tell myself that I don't miss him, but in actual fact I do. I'm just in denial 99% of the time. *rollseyes*

Counting down to the days I'm very much looking forward to!
41 days
79 days
81 days

Can't wait till you're back baby! I'll see you soon. xxx

Mood: artisticartistic
Music: Lifehouse - Blind
07 June 2014 @ 01:30 am

To one, the perfect and ideal date would be dressing up, having candlelight dinner in a fancy restaurant or even going on a romantic stroll along the beach.

Well mine's slightly different from that.

The perfect date would be a day at his place, painting moulded princess clays with a seven year old, playing Watchdog on PS3 and also playing this certain horrible children's board game.

Yup, call me boring.
But that's perfect to me.

"I'm amazed when i look at you. Not because of your looks, but because of the fact that everything i've ever wanted is right in front of me."
Mood: cheerfulcheerful
Music: Magic! - Rude
05 June 2014 @ 02:56 am

Because no matter how much we bicker, squabble and disagree on things. You're still the one who'll carve a smile on my face at the end of the day.

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I have so many things going on right now, but the first thing i think about in the morning is you.

03 March 2014 @ 02:48 pm

Never have i imagined being in a relationship with him.
Who would have thought something beautiful would blossom out of this.

One of my closest friend, one i've known for over two years and there wasn't anything more than just the great friendship we had.
In a twist of fate, i began falling for my very own friend.

I never thought i'd ever feel this way ever again.
This head-over-heels-i-wanna-be-with-you-forever-you-and-me-against-the-world kindda feeling.
Well boy, you definitely proved me wrong.
Yes, i feel like a fifteen year old girl falling in love again.

For i believe i have found the missing piece to my puzzle.
The piece i've long yearned for.
The piece that'll make me feel whole and complete again.

I've questioned different people on this before.
"How do you know, if he's the one, the one you'd want to spend your life with?"
All the answers would be similar to "you'll just know."

Yeah, i guess it's true, you'll just know. As cliche as that sounds.
How i didn't see it before, i have no clue?
But now i'm sure as hell want you to be my forever baby.
How i am so glad it's you. (:

I love you Yasier Mahadi, with all my heart and soul. <3
Mood: lovedloved
Music: John Legend - All Of me
20 January 2014 @ 01:49 am

This below was quoted by a very good friend of mine. It's whatever i feel in a nutshell.

Things don't always go as plan.
Love comes from the most unexpected places.

I hope one day you'll find it in you to forgive me.
For i am in pusuit of my own happiness.
Even i didn't see it coming.
Why now? Why him?
I don't know the answer to these questions either.

But what i know is he makes me feel complete. Like i've found the missing pieces of the puzzle.
Like the void in my heart has been filled again.

Yes for all i know it might be a mistake.
But it's a risk i'm willing to take.
You'll always want to know if the grass is greener on the other side.
Maybe it is, maybe it isn't?
But curiosity killed the cat they say.

I can't go about hoping that things would work out between us, and that i'd always hope you'd be the man i want you to be.
Things just don't work that way.

You deserve happiness.
And that happiness isn't me.
I am sorry.

I hope you are doing well my friend.
You will never be forgotten.

09 November 2013 @ 04:05 am

She cooked at two in the morning because she knew her daughter and her boyfriend were hungry.

She left work early eventhough it's her busiest time of the month just to get for her daughter the phone she has been waiting for.

She even bought her daughter the phone as a birthday present.

She leaves work the same time her daughter does eventhough she'll be late, just so they can ride the train together.

To the woman who had to go through a hard time in labour to have me in her life.

What's mentioned above is truly an understatement to everything you have ever done.

Thank you for all you have done for me Mama. We have never been affectionate or great at words. But i am so very grateful to have you in my life. I don't know what i'll do without you.

I am sorry for being such a prick during my adolescent years.

Dedicated to the best mother in the whole freaking universe! Thank you God for blessing me with such an amazing & wonderful mum!

I love you more than you'll ever know Mama.

14 September 2013 @ 02:42 am

I have't done this in donkey years. I guess i never found time to do this.

Work has definitely taken a major toll in my life. Never have i imagined adult life would be this draining. Physically, mentally and even emotionally sometimes. It gets tiring, working day to day from 10 till 7ish 8. Bleah! Can i go back to being young and carefree receving daily pocket money for school from my parents? Heee!

Though, i shouldn't complain too much, work has its perks. It allows me to travel at least once a year, get myself a Macbook Pro, pays for my Strip packages i signed up for, and i'm waiting to get for myself the new iPhone 5s! So in love with the thumbprint unlocking home button thing for some reason!

Anyways, not only that. I do actually sincerely love my job. Both part of it. The operations side, and also the more technical paperwork side to it. Doing operations just drains the living life out of you. It's as fun as hell (depends who you are stationed with) but it sure does suck out all the energy you possess. Paperwork on the other hand gets my half past dead brain to suddenly start functioning again. Amazing isn't it. Just when i thought i don't quite need it (brain) anymore. Haha! Mentally frustrating, but after you've done whatever you're supposed to do. You get that heart swelling huge sense of accomplishment afterwards.

Well, that's my life as it is. It revolves around MZAP for now. Actually, not quite, because part of me revolves around this particular someone too. But he's not there anymore. So my life revolves around two things now. Wait no, actually three. And there's the ever so lovely family i've always had by my side. Heee.

Life with the man has been good so far, i honestly didn't think we'd be together for this long. We're turning 3 soon. Remarkable isn't it? And here i thought we'd only last for a couple of months. I swear it still feels as though we've only been together for about a year. Guess not! My man is such a dork, he watches Japanese Anime, loves his comics, and not forgetting his third girlfriend, the amazing ps3. (Second being his "Alice") And guess what? I'm probably slowly becoming a dork as well. He influence me too much with things like that. One day i might just be wearing thise huge round harry potter glasses playing ps3 while wearing some Japanese cosplay costumes. Hahaha. That's probably a little far fetched but you get the idea.

So till i feel like writing up things happening in my life.
Goodbye world!

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24 November 2011 @ 02:04 am

Here's my baby girl all grown up now.
She's a little devil,  annoying the crap out of me/ everyone in the family majority of the time.
She's also a little angel, who can instantly carve a smile on your face the moment you look at her.
She's magic, my little sweetheart.
Who can ever be more adorable than you Shalyn?

p/s; get well soon darling. (:
Mood: sleepyyawny
Music: Ria 89.7FM - Misteri Jam 12
28 November 2010 @ 10:14 pm

It's been awhile hasn't it? (:
I sorta miss blabbing random thoughts & blurting out those emotional breakdown sessions here.
You have served me well & have been a great companion Livejournal. Heh heh heh. :D

So! Here i am, to give a brief update on what has been going on in my life.

Well, so where do i start? Hmmm..
Let's start with work/ school.

Alrighty, currently i am on internship at The Megazip Adventure Park.
We're being attached there for 10 weeks.
8 weeks have passed, which leaves us approximately 2 more weeks to go!
Gosh, how time flies.

Our first few weeks was sucha a pain in the ass.
Everyone wasn't so coping well.
Working there was, without a doubt, physically draining.
We whined and bitched among ourselves almost every single day after work. Hahaha!
But fortunately things got better, we started coping better, getting used to the environment and what not.

Okay now, let's talk about the Megazip Crews now.
They are certainly an awesome bunch of people who are friendly, nice, hyper & over-active i must add.
But wait.... then again.... i take that back.
Well.. most of them are amazing. 
But some are pretty much, plain motherfucking bitches/ assholes. :D
Shall not reveal any names here or i'll get myself into trouble for no apparent reason.
So go figure okay? (:

To be honest, Megazip's my first job ever. 
I never had the need to work before. Cause i am sucha spoilt brat.
So i had no idea what to expect.
But one thing for sure, working life is definitely exhausting.
And i have come to a conclusion in reference to all the remarks, comments & opinions i've heard.
i guess no matter where you work or how nice you try to be, sometimes some people are just a pain in the fucking ass.

Apart from that, did i mention i got like 10x tanner than i already am?
I know right, it's not like i'm not tanned enough already.
I look like a true blue Indian, i swear to god.
Sucha tragedy la! :(  


Okay enough about working life for now.
Let's get personal. actually i shall skip the detailed parts.
My love life has been a wreck eversince the ex-boyfriend.

Guess what?
I am a happy goober, silly ninteen year old girl, right this very moment. (:
It's weird i must say...
Unexpected is more appropriate.
Love comes in the most unusual places. Haha.

you, make me happy baby.
Mood: lovedloved
Music: Bruno Mars - Grenade
25 August 2010 @ 03:44 am

Capri, Italy

Alberobello, Italy

Tuscany, Italy

Portofino, Italy

Venice, Italy

Leaning Tower of Pisa, Tuscany, Italy

Piccolomini Library, Italy

Manorola, Cinque Terre, Italy

The Colosseum, Rome, Italy


Reason why i don't update my LJ as often is because i found another alternative to blogging which doesn't really require much of your brain matter.
All i have to do is reblog reblog reblog,
And trust me, it's definitely idiot proof.

I've been following fuckyeahglobetrotters on tumblr for quite awhile.
So they blog photos of BEAUTIFUL places on earth.
And i really mean RAVISHING!

Italy, particularly caught my eye.
I can't believe how breathtaking Italy is!
Just take a look at the photos above!
So much beauty in one country!

Oh Italy, how i'd love to visit you one day.
Just imagine spending a week or two on a honeymoon with the one you love in Italy.
How amazing would that be. <3

Zyra & I talked about having our honeymoon there.
She said i stole her idea and that she thought of going there for a honeymoon first.  -____-

Okay darling, first of all we're only 19!
Secondly, we're not working, so where in the world are we gonna get $$ to get to Italy in the first place!
And to being with, we're not even married!

But well, us girls can dream right? ;)

Well, i miss Zyra and her nonsense.
And i miss Boo too!
Irfan do you want to be included here as well?
Okay okay, i do miss Irfan actually.
And not forgetting Tqi.

Truth be told, the list can go on.
But i rather not mention anymore names.
For, it's for me to know and for you to find out. (:

And the best part of today was trying to explain to Zyra about the ____ which has a _____ that has batteries!
Even Boo got it!
Go figure! ^^
Mood: okayokay