I am trying to be as understanding.
I hate waiting.
I hate being neither here nor there.
I don't like to be left hanging.
Don't you think you're being selfish?

How could you?
How could you do this?
Do you not have a heart?

Never thought you could be so self-centered.
Have you ever thought what you're doing or about to do is so very selfish?
When all i ever wanted was you?

Am telling myself that God doesn't give us more than we can handle.
But how, how am i gonna go through this?
When i'm all broken inside?

Where did i go wrong this time?
Why? Is it so hard for you to stay?

I don't know what to say or do.
Should have known this was bound happen.
I should have taken my chances when i could.
And now l'm left broken hearted again.

:(










Would you rather have loved and lost or never loved at all?

I'd rather never loved at all.
I wished i've never loved.
At least i wouldn't have to bear the pain till the rest of time.
Nothing feels worst than losing the one you love, nothing.

Like i promised, an update.

Ever since the new semester started, i haven't gone to a single S&W class!
I have a feeling Zyra didn't too? Right darling? hahaha!

Omfg, i can't believe how freaking cold it is.
I had to freaking close my windows so i don't freeze to death!

And you guys wanna know why i'm able to blog?
Cause my sister is presently hooked on to SIMS 2 again.
I wanna get SIMS 3.
Qid Qad has it, and i'm envious!
HMPH!

And i want a hell lot more things.
But i never seem to have cash! Grrr!
I still have no idea what to get Rul!
I should steal all my boyfriend's money since i know his PIN number!
Muahaahhhaahahhaha!

Speaking of boyfriend, Sheikhie just got back on Sunday night.
He's far away visiting his grandparents now.
And he's leaving tomorrow morning!
It's not fair don't you think?!
I hate this!

I just got to know Halis, Tqi and Naqiah just went shisha without ME!
How could they?!
I miss/want my bubblegum + watermelon flavoured shisha!
*cries some more*

Oh yes, Happy Belated Birthday Rul & Kavi!
Missing you guys loads!


& TQI! THIS IS FOR YOU! CAUSE I LOVE YOU TOO DAMN MUCH!



HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!
And i can imagine the look on your face when you see those!
I have a teeny weeny feeling that you won't friend me for life now! heheeh.












i remember what you wore on our first day
you came into my life and i thought hey
you know this could be something

i remember every look upon your face, the way you roll your eyes,
the way you taste, you make it hard for breathing
'cause when I close my eyes and drift away, i think of you and everything's okay.

and maybe it's true, that i can't live without you.

I've been wanting to update, but my Sheikhie's phone's having some problem transferring files to the comp!
Well, maybe it's my desktop?
God knows what the hell went wrong!

Alright shall update real soon.
Cause, i am heading out with lovelies now!
And i'm bringing camera!
TA-TA!

:D

YAY! I've updated my Music Widget Kitty up there!

3 tracks from Muse, because I SIMPLY CAN'T GET ENOUGH OF THEM!
GAAAAAAH!
Muse's rocking my world!
There's also Dashboard Confessional, Ok Go, John Mayer and Death Cab For Cutie!
I should include Paramore soon! (:

I'm falling in love with my new playlist!
Which i will soon get bored of within two weeks or so. :D

Don't matter, i wanted to share the excitement!
ENJOY THE SONGS EVERYONE!


And also HAPPY BELATED 39th BIRTHDAY ABAH!
I ♥ YOU!












can't wait for you to be back.
i dreamt of you too many times lately.
& i believe that's a sign. (:

Because i love them many many much much! ♥
So far i've kissed Zyra before and Aqidah just tongue-kissed me this afternoon.
Okay, not so much of the tongue kissing part.

Anyway, today was part stupid, part fun, part hilarious and entertainingly bitchy!
We were the Officials for the Track & Field Meet.

Me and Qid Qad (pronounced somewhat like Kit Kat) did something totally redundant!
Since we weren't assigned to any station in particular, we were supposed to help clear out the pool of rainwater which apparently flooded the discus throwing area.

So we worked on those rollers and brooms for an hour or so?
An hour right?
Trying to roll and sweep away the rainwater off to the drains.
Like i said, it was redundant cause the damn place was soaked up like a pool!
To top that off, it rained shortly after.
Our hard work literally went down that same damn drain ah!
Waste of my bloody time!

But it's alright, we had fun STOMP-ing around and doing some classic musical dance with the broom and roller.

Okay psyched.

Anyhoo, i would like to wish 1/3 of the Powerpuff Girl gang, a HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY!
bastard she found the receipt! damn it! haha!
Other than that, I LOVE LOVE YOU ZYRA!

Oh yes, and this is going out to the guys.
ATTENTION ALL MALES ON EARTH: PLEASE, I REPEAT, PLEASE DO NOT WEAR LIGHT-COLOURED TIGHTS AND RUN AROUND THE STADIUM!

because your protruding penis will be highly visible, and so are your balls!
it's absolutely fucking gross!
thank you.


So that is all for now.
And i want teteks can?
BIG ONES! like these below. hehehehehe.

Have i ever told you about my favourite pastime/ hobby?

Well, it's a pretty simple hobby, nothing complicated or complex or anything.
I pretty much don't have to do anything, but wait?
Let me give you a hint..
It's something on Facebook.
No! It's not playing those silly quizzes or games on Facebook! eventhough i do.

Well, take a took...



If you are dumb fuck slow and haven't figured it out yet.
It's actually collecting friend requests.
As seen above, i currently have 67 pending friend request of which i don't know who those freaking people are!
Actually i do know a couple or two of them, but i have my reasons for not accepting.

It's funny how people from all across the world can start adding you.
Like how did you stumble upon my profile in the first place dude?!

Anyhoots, it's already Sunday, back to school tomorrow.
Gheeesh!
And i am all alone at home.

My boyfriend's went back to camp, mum' out, sister god knows where she is.
Sigh.
I've been sucha wimp lately, especially after i watched Paranormal Activity.
To the extent i actually made my boyfriend wait for me outside the toilet when i went to pee. HAHA!

Okay i know, wuss!
But it didn't help that after the movie, my sister and Abang Hafiz were story telling about things they saw from my house!
That totally freaked me out all night kay!


Sigh.
I miss my boyfriend already.
He ditched soccer for me yesterday.
Not only soccer, it was Man Utd okay! heeheheh.
you know you are the best i ever had.

I was reading my diary yesterday.
It was written somewhat two years back.
I sorta miss all that drama-mama.
hahaha!

Okay that's that.
I forgot what i wanted to blog about. damn!


So yes, shall blog again soon.
I CAN'T WAIT FOR DECEMBER! wheeee~



Oh yes, if you'd like to scare the shit load out of yourselves, here's the link to catch Paranormal Activity.
CLICK CLICK CLICK CLICK!
ENJOY MY FRIENDS!

Totally ripped the above off Rul's tumblr.
Both of which relates to how i'm feeling.











I wish that every morning, i could be waking up to you that way.

I have a thing for spicy food.
I love anything HOT HOT HEAT!
Maybe because i'm partly indian. Hmm?
I believe indians love spicy food.

Speaking of which, yesterday was Deepavali or Diwali.
Happy Deepavali to all our hindu friends!
And my three favourite lovelies texted me that day, wishing me a Happy Deepavali. -___-"
Hahahaha! Really bastard all of them!
Though, i pretty much saw it coming already! :p
All three of them, as expected! I was just waiting for it!

Tqi has been wishing me for the past few consecutive years, without fail!
She is such a delight! *rollseyes*
So this year, Zyra and Aqidah have decided to join the club!
HOOORAAAY! -____-"
I dowan to friend ya'll uh! hmph!

On a side note, I AM FREAKING GAINING TONNES OF WEIGHT!
Oh my gaaaaaawwwwwwwddddd!
Actually, i'm not too sure?
I haven't set foot on a weighing scale since like many many months ago?
BUT! People have mentioned that i've put on a couple of pounds.
And i feel that way too! Cause i have never-ending thoughts about food!
And i constantly get hungry! What is wrong with me?!

I kept telling Sheikhie that i think i have a 10 month old baby in my tummy!
That's why i constantly get hungry!
But i think it's more like, i have BABY DINOSAURS inside, cause..
I EAT LIKE A FREAKIN' PIG!
Ohhh dear gaaawwwwddd!

I think Sheikhie and i work like Yin and Yang.
He's losing weight and i'm putting on weight.
WTF?!
Ya la, the boy's starting to look all good and smexy, while i'm turning into his fat pig girlfriend!
Where's the justice in that?!



I believe i've been whining to Sheikhie about my weight gain and all that jazz, all weekend!
Poor poor boy. hehe!

Okay, i've just wrote a whole entry about practically random nonsense!
So yes, i better be off now.
I've got school tomorrow.
Again, WTFFFFFFF??????!!!!!!

Where's my fucking damn in-lieu holiday fuckers?!
Bloody cheeeeeebyeeeeeeee!


Okay CAWA BANGA!








i say hey i'll be gone today, but I'll be back all around the way
it seems like everywhere I go, the more I see the less I know
but I know one thing that i love you
i love you, i love you, i love you